so guys are still guys. my sister told me guys dont just change like that. and that i cant blame guys for being playful. so now i know some guys are just not as emotionally attached as girls, some guys just dont understand and never will.
life's so darn unfair & we all know that. like how i gave away my whole heart in exchange for so much tears. i always ask myself what went wrong, what i did wrongly and if i deserve all these shit. sometimes i'm so angry i could punch through 7464832485923 walls.
my life've been revolving around this issue for long enough already, i know i'm not the worst case on earth, i know its not the end of the world im only eighteen. & i also know that nobody can help me get out of this except myself. its nothing big, its nothing big. for now the very first step is to convince myself in the head and in the heart that nothing is going to change anymore but its not easy, really.
even when i thought i was the most important person in that heart, i was taken for granted. i dont know what else to expect anymore.
enough of the emo shitzxzx, the next post will be a happy one with a lot of photos. the whole of yesterday was crazy with lots of love (: