stealing hearts with love

Monday, March 31, 2008

wriggledwithlove

last night at Gotham Penthouse was not too bad. crazy dancing time, my legs are aching. slept till like 1pm today. shioook (:

last saturday

them

went to visit my ahgong at the hospital with my fam today. he looked so weak and fragil. i cant speak teochew so i cant really communicate properly with him or ask him how's he feeling & everything so i just stood there and watch him talk to my mum. i love my ahgong very much.

my dad drove me home after that and bought me very nice chicken pie :D
i love my dad, love my mum & my sistersss. were planning a hongkong trip with my sisters yaay yaay yaay. not confirmed yet but we're gonna start saving first (:

i'm so freaking tired of reassuring myself about things. i start to feel nothing. like i dont know how to react anymore. so much disappointment but i know nobody cares.

i need shopping and happy food.

xoxo 10.23pm

Saturday, March 29, 2008

wriggledwithlove

like no one's there.

J Khoo tagged me :

1] At what age do you wish to marry?
26!

2] What i want the most now?
to be a really, really happy girl(:

3] Who is the person you trust the most?
errrr myself?

4] Do you think you have enough confidence?
hmmm depends? not when im pmsing. i feel like shit.

5] If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
be a really, really, REALLY happy girl FOREVERR waha

6] Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yaaaa

7] What are you afraid to lose the most now?
errrrr my loved ones.

8] Do you believe in eternity love?
not yet

9] If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
if we're both single and avaliable, yes

10] List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
funny, really good at making people laugh/smile and he can dance very well i think (:

11] What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
romantic, sweet & really, really love me

12] What feeling do you hate the most?
shitty.

13] Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
only those that are worth it

14] Do you believe in God?
yes

15] What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
my loved ones

16] Do you find it a need for you to have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
eh only when the right one comes at the right time

17] At this point of time, would you rather stay in your comfort zone or try something new?
comfort zone heh

18] What kind of friend you hope to be in your friend's eyes?
ER nothing negative? ahahha

19] Where do you see yourself in 5 years time?
working and very in love with my man :D

20] the sun or shopping?
SHOPPING

Instructions: Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chatbox that he/she has been tagged.Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

People who've been tagged:
1.janice
2.xiaowei
3.lileen
4.yuentuck
5.kangjie
6.jean
7.elleen
8.amelia

my face's peeling and now i wan to die even more. i have patches of very tanned skin and it looks really weird.
anyway work today was not too bad. morning was so quiet cos i was working alone & there were no classes. actually i kind of like it (even though very lonely lol) cos i can slowly complete the work i have (: work again tomorrow. pls let it be busy busy so time will fly.

i couldnt get to sleep last night. i went to bed ard 1am and really fell asleep ard 4am? i remember the last time i check the time before i fell alseep was 3.35am. and i woke up at 7am omg. i hope i can sleep properly tonight ):

i
am
so
tired
of
thinking.

xoxo 11.20pm

Friday, March 28, 2008

wriggledwithlove

bring me away

boyfriend cheong came over again today. love him very much. dinner with mabel xiaowei and janice today. mabel left early, so the three of us stayed and talked for hours. its really nice. love u all many (:

random:
i miss...

-my big sister! she's married so she's seldom home ): i need to talk to her.

-the secondary school days

-hanging around with my mother, shopping, eating or talking nonsense.

-the first few months when me and rayson just got together. when he wrote me poems, when it was the sweetest. not that we're not crazily in love anymore, its just feels a lil different now.

-nicolette ng (anyway bumped into her just now :D)

-the days i dont have to work at all for extra money. sometimes its really tiring.

-the days when im so super positive about life. so happy with everything i have, so happy that life is going the way i wanted it to be.

-netball days. i can eat as much as i want to then. not anymore cos i dont exercise much. damn unhealthy.

-some people i used to see a lot but not anymore.

i hate worrying about lil, lil things. i hate how these lil, lil things can affect me.
i am really trying too hard. its so tiring.

i have work at nine tomorrow so i better go to bed. nighty!

xoxo 11.59pm

Thursday, March 27, 2008

wriggledwithlove

THE BEST LOVE HUGS

i slept really early ytd. so tired! and my shoulders and cheeks are all red & they're so painful. the pain to suffer after a day of funnnn lol. but its worth it la :D

i'm having bad cramps again so i'm staying home for the whole day. rayson came over and bought me food :D & then we watched tv, played with stupid card games till he's off to work.
love you sweetie (:

Random:
(-)
-got my timetable. wth everyday except thursdays i end at 5pm. walao walao walao ):
-i've got really uneven tan on my face. die.
-i've got work on friday & saturday. thinking of work makes me feel very very very siaaaaaaannnnn.
-cramps cramps cramps

(+)
-dinner tmr with the girls!

overdue photos

byebyebyebye

xoxo 5.20pm

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

wriggledwithlove

never enough

omg freaking tired.
sentosa with janice xiaowei alex yuentuck rayson was good, the weather was good, daidee and the hittings on the hands were good too.

bad cramps bad cramps bad cramps.

xoxo 8.55pm

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

wriggledwithlove

my heart aches

today was not too good because we did not make any potato salad or watch any DVDs at home. went chinatown in the morning instead & i nearly fainted at the hawker centre. waste my money cos we cabbed to my place. 12bucks ok. walao 2 hrs pay horrrr. but i was too weak to walk and the weather was so hot in the morning! so glad rayson was there or i might just die at chinatown!

anyway i was totally ok after an hour later. i can jump and everything. i dont know what's wrong. mayb next time i shld just stay and not cab home immediately. really broke lately i have no moneyyyyyyyy to waste on cab fares.

i havent really shopped properly for a long time. not even online shopping. i've stopped for a long time already becos i see nth i like A LOT and is cheap enough. the most recent stuff i really spent on was my 30bucks sandals. even though my mum says it dont look 30bucks & rayson says im wasting money but i really like it a lot! so im still a happy girl.

okaaaaaaaaaay so we caught Semi-Pro with yuentuck & hongsheng at cine today. its a very stupid show.

sentosaaaa tmr!

xoxo 11.38pm

Monday, March 24, 2008

wriggledwithlove

ALL OR NOTHING

DXO last night was a failure. a super big one.

anywaaaay, dinner on the 21st with my fam was goood (:
i think my dad was happy. hehehoho. before that we went to buy bags and bags of junk food with my mum. very happy very happy ive got a lot of stuff to eat now.

tmr is making potato salad with rayson then watch some DVDs at home. tue will be sentosa with the few. i havent seen mabel for ages. we shld all meet up soon to have dinner tgt!

okay i'm going to eat lunch & watch tv. oh yeah, life is goood like this.

xoxo 12.50pm

Saturday, March 22, 2008

wriggledwithlove

SWEET LIKE CANDIES

ytd was Step Up 2 with rayson. i think Stomp The Yard was way better.

happy birthday to my dad & big bear xiongwei! ((:

xoxo 12.23pm

Thursday, March 20, 2008

wriggledwithlove

forever(:

first day of work for my telemarketing job. i really didnt know that telemarketing can be this stressful. and i dont think $6 per hour can make me stay. like im not that desperate for money & like what my big sister said, i'll be working for a long time after i graduate (unless i marry a rich guy right after i graduate or strike toto/4D). so i should find a job i'm more comfortable with now since i'm just a student. so yes, im calling my boss tmr.

today was dinner with janice, xiaowei, lileen, km & alex. food was okay but the company was great(: bought some alcohol & tidbits, went over to the playground near my house. we met some reallyyy irritating kids. they kicked me ok. haha i threatened them that i wil box them if they kick me but they still kick ): i very no power laaaa.

i am sick. sick sick sick im going to talk on phone with my boy & then sleep. i must remember to call my boss tmr.

MUST!

xoxo11.59pm

wriggledwithlove

BEST KISSABLE ON EARTH(:

finally shitted ytd after ard 6,7 days (!!!) of constipation. darn happy. i think too heaty nvr drink enough water! and my menses came a day & then stopped. my mum says its normal. she says im just too stress. but i'm worrrried leh, like very abnormal.

i have work later! aiya shit, havent really read all the stuffs i'm supposed to know. i'm looking forward to dinner later and tomorrow cos i've got no work! i can enjoy slacking, hanging ard outside or whatever : D

ytd was work then mahjong with chan yt, kaming & rayson at rayson's place. aiya lost money again. CYT is the big winner. i earned and lost money on the same day. heart pain lehhhhh.

i'm going to have lunch and prepare for work already. byebyebyebye

xoxo 10.54pm

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

wriggledwithlove

these few days had been really emotionally rocky. depressed to the max. other than the usual "i am so fat & ugly", there were new ones like "why my life like thaaat", "nobody loves me" and stuff like quarrelling with rayson happens. everything's good now, and i hope it'll stay this way a long time.

i skipped work today & felt super bad about it. but i really needed a break & im falling sick.
i packed my shoe rack & threw away like 10 to 15 pairs of them. packed because i bought a pair of pretty sandals and i felt really guilty cos my mum nagged at me about my messy shoe rack since forever, i had to throw some away. hehe i love my new sandals : D

chan YT is back! and he bought me a tshirt. SO SWEET!
anyway i'm happy i'm meeting the girls on wednesday for dinner! hopefully western : D

work oh work

oh and look at this. she sang at BGT when she's six and she has an album omg. she's so cute!

cant believe she's SIX/SEVEN.
ok i need to get some sleep. work tmr!

xoxo 11.59PM

Saturday, March 15, 2008

wriggledwithlove

work today was alright except i didnt have a good sleep last night because i was having a major moodswing i cried again. oh whats wrong with me?! and then i have a super bad dream about yuentuck, kaming and rayson making me super angry i nearly explode but i cannot rmb anything else other than that. so im half a zombie at work today.

met chou ji dan yuentuck after work at Dover to go home together & get some food. he's going msia tmr! i'll miss u chou ji dan.

im working tmr, working on sunday, monday, tue & wed. working for 6 days straight is no fun for me. feeling freaking stress over that telemarketing job on wed ): & i've yet to digest those information yet. omg, i prefer studying.

work at ten tmr. but at least i get to see rayson & get some big love hugs. i think im lacking of love plus moodswings & the lousy weather these few days is making me emo emo emo.

rayson gives me the best love hugs but sometimes i really want to punch him a million times.

very painful ok

went out like this

but still very happy

tue night

anyway, still love him very much.

//edit

cool hor.

xoxo11.59pm

Friday, March 14, 2008

wriggledwithlove

the rain is making me emo emo.

went eunos for my job training in the afternoon. it was ooookay, just that all the information is too much for my head to take at a go so i have a stack of notes to read over these few days before starting work on next wed. it ended in an hour so i went home to cook some soup & watched tv till i meet janice for dinner (:
too full for yummy steak which i planned to have for dinner. janice next time oookay next time we must eat.

work tmr. money money money. i need a lot of money.

i saw/hear part of the darker side of this world and this small part i hear and see is enough for me to build this extra wall around me.

xoxo 11.38pm

Thursday, March 13, 2008

wriggledwithlove

photos from tuck's phone